diamond tears

She was always so cold, like deepest night winter
So he gave her his jacket, the one that is
The same blue that sits on the edge of his irises
Then he turned her tears to diamonds
And told her to hang them all up in her
Bedroom window on silver strings because
Refracted glass rainbows were her favourite things
She blue-tacked up pieces of torn out paper
Filled with coloured crayons from a phone conversation
That she hung up on three weeks ago from today
That made her cry and she can't call back
And now they stare at her and she can't tell why
The invisible girl became poster girl for
Everything that no one else ever really was
But she was voted most likely to be
Voted most likely to kill the prom queen
And he swore that she would never
Have to look into the eyes of those
Who also wanted to died, ever again
Because it was hard enough seeing it
Every morning when she looked in the mirror
He swore that when they turned 18
She would never have to walk into that house again
And she cried every night to help herself to get to sleep
Because she missed his arms around her more than the sun
She felt so cold, oh so cold without him
Because he was her sun and moon and stars
And he told her that he felt like he was dying
She cried because she felt like maybe she would
Have to stay cold forever and forget what it felt like
To know your lovers arms around you and
Their lips on your lips and their breath on your skin and
Their fingers between yours and it feels worse
Than being all alone all over again because
Once you know what it is to love you
Can't live without it and
He was the only man she ever loved
He was the only man she ever knew that
Could turn her tears to diamonds and her
Frowns to smiles and she couldn't live without him
Because he was the one that kept her warm
Who wouldn't let her look into the eyes of
Other people who knew what it was to want to die
And who would be there to get her out of here
Because when she turned 18 in two years time
He would still be frozen in 2010 but
Being cold, growing old, and dying all alone
Was more than she could bear